Polona Day 9 Still here

I am still here. I broke computer & meditation rules two days ago -> but for a good reason: to keep a friendship up and reunite with my old/best Crossfit friends.

Kristiyan spoiled me yesterday with his protein brownies. They were (booty)delicious!

I have some big new, But I will keep it as a secret for now. ;) I am really busy currently, so my blog writing is short and not up-to-date.

Freeride,
P.

One Week to Go or How I am not eating

Today is one week after the beginninf of our 60 Day Challenge. Today is also one week befor my Team Challenge and that is why I set some goals to get ready for it.

Each Day I will try to share my experience, workouts, nutrition and lifestyle pics or some written lines, to check it (also for myself), if it really work and if I can performe better after this week.

There are some new guidlines for my Team Challenge prep week ->

• I need to get 8 hour sleep. Definitelly. My body need to recover and get enough rest.
• I need to try to get some training two times in a Day or get some time for training and WOD (with training I am saying - learn Double Unders, Pull ups, Ring Dips and build strenght, with WOD - either regular class or something from my Team Challenge planned WODs)
• I need to try some new nutrition plan (Fat and Carbs) that offered my couch. I am still staying on Paleo and will do fasting, but I will need to check my fat and carb relations. Wenn I do training, I am eating carbs and protein, when I have day off (that is not happening oft) - stay on carbs and fat. It definitelly will be hard, because I am mixing all together and do not think about if my chicken with Tahin is good or not.
• I need to get my suplements for better recovery. After Whole30 I am not drinking protein shakes and trying to eat more (it is more expensive as you think (!) ), but I am taking Amino Acids and Vitamins as well as Fish oil. It works together so gooood....
• I need to be aware of eating to much Tahin, Coconut cream and milk. Instead of this I need to get more meat, veggies and protein. Fruits shoul also be consumed in a normal amount. And, yes, maybe some reis or sushi will be included in my Paleo cheat day plan.

So, I am starting today!
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Kristiyan Day 8 : Protein RuleZ

Today is one of my "super protein" days, because my protein intake today is super high.
Here is the meal plan for today:

Meal #1 (Breakfast)

Proteeein browniess

Meal #2

Protein bars from bodylab24.de, read my older articles to see them.

Meal #3 (Lunch)

Today it is again some ordinary healthy sandwiches from the store

Meal #4

It is a banana + protein shake (BSN Syntha-6)

Meal #5

It is a normal and healthy salad, because heavy food is for the first half of the day :)

It is not about cheating. It is about pleasure!

It is way harder as I thought that it will be. Some days later after my Whole30  I went in another crazy challenge for 60 days. What I was thinking about?

 

 

My Whole30 was a little bit challenging. Although I get some results and I was happy about it, it was hard, because I deleted a lot of products from my meal plan that was soooo tasty and yes, I enjoyed them. My Bacon Brownie, my coconut chocho nut cake, sushi...

And now?
I am on my 60 day challenge with one cheat day in a month?
You know what?
No way!

Cheat Day is defined as a day on which you are allowed to break your diet, as complete abstinence is impossible for most people. It also provides a reward for the sticking to your nutrition plan over the rest of the week. The "cheat" can be small (e.g. a chocolate muffin with lunch), large (e.g. a fast food meal), or systemic.

Yes, now I need to think about an article and I totally think the same ->

Sex With Your Pants On 

But not everything is so simple!

What are the things that makes us happy? It is friends, family, job, if you are lucky, some small and nice moments in everyday life, something that are connected with other people or objects. But we can make us happy. With creating small and pleasant moments or enjoying our time. You probably know where I am going, right?

Home made Sushi, cake or pizza from Italy.... Wine and cheese.... Cooking and baking... That is so gooooddddd.......

Where am I still going?

My challenge is a moment where I truly miss all the things that made me happy or gave a pleasurable moments. Small ones but still really great ones.

Now I am putting myself under too much pressure because of different sport competitions, my work, workout and trainings, my nutrition (it will come in next article, there will be more crazy things to add to my challenge (!!!) ) and I miss this - take a seat and get some marvellous moment with drinking coffee or eating the best home made cake ever!

It is a little bit crazy right now, but I will try to keep my moments of pleasure in my everyday life, although I am on challenge. Although it will be Sex with the pants on, because

If you are doing it great and have some master skills, you can receive pleasure from it...

Christini goes emotional Day 5

THiNK FAT LOSS NOT WEiGHT LOSS

What makes me the most angry person in the world in consideration to judgement from others against my body ? It is, when they don´t know my story, the changes I´ve been trough, my personal attitude  "I don´t give a fuck what society wants me to have for a bodysize" and that even the ones who critisize the most, are the unhappiest, laziest ones.
I think its extremely sad, that people think, a woman has to be skinny,needs a very flat stomache "but still must enjoy food" , still has to have boobs, no cellulite, natural but pretty, sporty but elegant,
this
that
not to much of plastic
pretty face
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I really really don´t give a shit anymore to words like "if you wanted to lose weight, you already would have lost it ." Yes I would have lost a lot weight, if I prefered eating nothing, liked beeing weak and a flabby unsporty girl, loved Dizziness and head aching, wanted to loose hair, having bad nails (...) The list of the symptoms why eating less or even nothing is dangerous, is extremely long.
I had a period of always eating to less, having all this symptoms and was under pressure since my 14th age. The most horrible part was, that I hadn´t had my period fo THREE years. I dont care if this a tabu theme, kinda no one really talks about it  - Doctors told me to gain weight and eat more fat, but I was like, "why should I eat fat, when YOU doctors will tell me with 5 kg more I will be to fat again?
Within 3 years I gained some weight and my period came back for the first time in my life  regularly. At this Point, I was to fat again. Not for myself, but for society. At this time, I started Feeling hopeless. 17 Year old girl, fucked up, because she gets always criticized by her Body.
I feel annoyed by girls, who are skinny since their whole life and seem to never weight more than a princess bean, while eating a pizza at 4 a.m. in the morning after drinking the whole night. Then they  judge ME for taking my salad to go to some place, but still not beeing skinny ! Also I don ´t want to hear from lazy flabby bitches their strange fast tip to loose weight with  "almased" or other drinking diet shit. This is a FAST technique to loose weight on the scale, also to harm your body extremely - no thank you.
 I want to transform myself and not to destroy. 

Since I started doing Crossfit, I feel the very first time confident about myself,
 I dont cry( not joking) when I go on the scale, even if its to much weight. I now, I am on the right way, but building muscles needs time, these muscles, help my body to "kill" fat and while this process is getting better day by day, my fitness improves also a lot ! Working like a machine, thinking like a philosoph and beeing calm as a stone, I feel myself growing as a person, while my body and my soul are starting to live the first time in my life in harmony. Nothing feels better than lifting weights. I swear, this is the best self-therapie for happyness. Since my 14th age, I liked the look of anorectic girls. I wanted to look like them, because they seem weak, helpless and they get attention from everyone who has a helping syndrom. But honestly, in all those years I gained so much experience and understanding for my body, that I had to realize : its not part of my personality to need bystanders who give me false attention. My Problem was artificial behaviour from human beings, so why should I live the lie "to need help from someone.", I prefer the individual, slightly muscular, toned look for a woman body. I don ´t need any words from a non-understanding-anti,emphatic doctor; skinny, flabby weak girls, or man who don´t understand what a woman makes a woman.
I don´t want to judge someone, I just want to say, that maybe young woman like me are not interested to get an opinion about their "strong", "fat"or whatever you want to call it -  body. You never know, what others have been trough, so be careful with your words.

To work like a machine, I ate 2 bananas,one apricot one table spoon coconut mus and some in oven baked sweet potatoe and carrots

#Idontneedtoexcusemyselfforeating#carbbomb#alotoffood#wannalearnnottoeatfor12hours

My bam bam snackie was a Cliff Bar, he was everything else than sweet. It was a fixed, lightly sweet oatly tasting bar, which  reminds me of dough with oats inside.!
To reduce my blood sugar Level, I got one TEAAAAA spoon Mandelmus  *yummyyyyyyyyyyyy

I ate watermelon with some grapes, for dinner and went later to the Wod at Spreecrossfit.  Honestly, 3 meals a day do not work for me, it simply does not wooooooooooooork ^^  Five to 6 little meals work much better for me ! I felt very weak today, maybe because I only slept 3 hours. In our basement something is broken and its as loud as an airplane. which is flying 24 hours a day over our flat -.-

The last food I had, where so carrots and cucumbers, shared with a new member from Spreecrossfit. ( <3 )

Christini goes working Day 3

So, first of all I have to say, its really hard to eat 3 Meals a day, when you are always on the run !
The last two days I went working at Kaisers :
 friday -6 pm till 10 pm
and saturday - 5 pm till 10 pm,
SO my last meal was at 5 pm and 4 pm.

All in all I have to say, that These time gaps are extremely hard for me
I think "you can´t eat later, but still not hungry now,
you must eat now, because you won´t get anything later   !"
This is a Problem. I Train my mind and Body to think, that, he needs Food now, because later will be no nutritions given to. *knows that this is wrong


>This is all a mind Thing ! <

So what did I eat ?
In the morning I had 150 gram Cottage cheese and one apple, - coffe with soya milk : D

later two bananas (as a Snack )

at 1 p m I had steamed princess beans, Broccoli and 1 egg

at 4 p m half of an Avocado, wild salmon and cucumber.

yeah and when I came home, 10.30 p. m.
I had a table spoon of cashewmus, to reduce my blood sugar and stop craving for Food,

AGAINST MY OWN RULES,

but as I said, I have to control my Body more with my mind!

 

 

 

Christini goes sick Day 4

What a pitty : /

My neck feels bloody and hurts, I don´t taste anything and I feel weak.
Haven´t been visiting my Crossfit box for 4 days already , I feel something is missing.
But I went jogging, did my burpees and walked a lot. ( Really not comparable to a WOD )

What did I eat today ?

For breakfast I had the oatmeal Snack from "alles vegetarisch"and 3 apricots with one tea spoon cashewmus on them.
For dinner I had wild salmon, smashed Avocado, cucumber and an egg, made as a salad and a coffe with soya milk.
My Snack was one of those Cliff bars, because I felt so weak and needed some sweet shit : P
At 3 p.m some relatives visited me, to celebrate my graduation. I visited 12 classes in germany and have now the "Abitur." This is the highest form of finishing school.
I am not a friend of material presents, so my mother ordered a beautiful cake for me.
For sure, it is full of sugar, grains and even more sugar, so that I was not able to eat it.
But no Problem, my mum was not angry ( because I never really loved ´those sweet candie things) and tough I don´t feel / felt craving this cake .

My last meel was at 7 p.m. when my family was leaving. I Had  2 eggs and a paprika, also some watermelon.
My day ended, with a 4 km walk  .!