THiNK FAT LOSS NOT WEiGHT LOSS
What makes me the most angry person in the world in consideration to judgement from others against my body ? It is, when they don´t know my story, the changes I´ve been trough, my personal attitude "I don´t give a fuck what society wants me to have for a bodysize" and that even the ones who critisize the most, are the unhappiest, laziest ones.
I think its extremely sad, that people think, a woman has to be skinny,needs a very flat stomache "but still must enjoy food" , still has to have boobs, no cellulite, natural but pretty, sporty but elegant,
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not to much of plastic
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I really really don´t give a shit anymore to words like "if you wanted to lose weight, you already would have lost it ." Yes I would have lost a lot weight, if I prefered eating nothing, liked beeing weak and a flabby unsporty girl, loved Dizziness and head aching, wanted to loose hair, having bad nails (...) The list of the symptoms why eating less or even nothing is dangerous, is extremely long.
I had a period of always eating to less, having all this symptoms and was under pressure since my 14th age. The most horrible part was, that I hadn´t had my period fo THREE years. I dont care if this a tabu theme, kinda no one really talks about it - Doctors told me to gain weight and eat more fat, but I was like, "why should I eat fat, when YOU doctors will tell me with 5 kg more I will be to fat again?
Within 3 years I gained some weight and my period came back for the first time in my life regularly. At this Point, I was to fat again. Not for myself, but for society. At this time, I started Feeling hopeless. 17 Year old girl, fucked up, because she gets always criticized by her Body.
I feel annoyed by girls, who are skinny since their whole life and seem to never weight more than a princess bean, while eating a pizza at 4 a.m. in the morning after drinking the whole night. Then they judge ME for taking my salad to go to some place, but still not beeing skinny ! Also I don ´t want to hear from lazy flabby bitches their strange fast tip to loose weight with "almased" or other drinking diet shit. This is a FAST technique to loose weight on the scale, also to harm your body extremely - no thank you.
I want to transform myself and not to destroy.
I had a period of always eating to less, having all this symptoms and was under pressure since my 14th age. The most horrible part was, that I hadn´t had my period fo THREE years. I dont care if this a tabu theme, kinda no one really talks about it - Doctors told me to gain weight and eat more fat, but I was like, "why should I eat fat, when YOU doctors will tell me with 5 kg more I will be to fat again?
Within 3 years I gained some weight and my period came back for the first time in my life regularly. At this Point, I was to fat again. Not for myself, but for society. At this time, I started Feeling hopeless. 17 Year old girl, fucked up, because she gets always criticized by her Body.
I feel annoyed by girls, who are skinny since their whole life and seem to never weight more than a princess bean, while eating a pizza at 4 a.m. in the morning after drinking the whole night. Then they judge ME for taking my salad to go to some place, but still not beeing skinny ! Also I don ´t want to hear from lazy flabby bitches their strange fast tip to loose weight with "almased" or other drinking diet shit. This is a FAST technique to loose weight on the scale, also to harm your body extremely - no thank you.
I want to transform myself and not to destroy.
Since I started doing Crossfit, I feel the very first time confident about myself,
I dont cry( not joking) when I go on the scale, even if its to much weight. I now, I am on the right way, but building muscles needs time, these muscles, help my body to "kill" fat and while this process is getting better day by day, my fitness improves also a lot ! Working like a machine, thinking like a philosoph and beeing calm as a stone, I feel myself growing as a person, while my body and my soul are starting to live the first time in my life in harmony. Nothing feels better than lifting weights. I swear, this is the best self-therapie for happyness. Since my 14th age, I liked the look of anorectic girls. I wanted to look like them, because they seem weak, helpless and they get attention from everyone who has a helping syndrom. But honestly, in all those years I gained so much experience and understanding for my body, that I had to realize : its not part of my personality to need bystanders who give me false attention. My Problem was artificial behaviour from human beings, so why should I live the lie "to need help from someone.", I prefer the individual, slightly muscular, toned look for a woman body. I don ´t need any words from a non-understanding-anti,emphatic doctor; skinny, flabby weak girls, or man who don´t understand what a woman makes a woman.
I don´t want to judge someone, I just want to say, that maybe young woman like me are not interested to get an opinion about their "strong", "fat"or whatever you want to call it - body. You never know, what others have been trough, so be careful with your words.
To work like a machine, I ate 2 bananas,one apricot one table spoon coconut mus and some in oven baked sweet potatoe and carrots
I dont cry( not joking) when I go on the scale, even if its to much weight. I now, I am on the right way, but building muscles needs time, these muscles, help my body to "kill" fat and while this process is getting better day by day, my fitness improves also a lot ! Working like a machine, thinking like a philosoph and beeing calm as a stone, I feel myself growing as a person, while my body and my soul are starting to live the first time in my life in harmony. Nothing feels better than lifting weights. I swear, this is the best self-therapie for happyness. Since my 14th age, I liked the look of anorectic girls. I wanted to look like them, because they seem weak, helpless and they get attention from everyone who has a helping syndrom. But honestly, in all those years I gained so much experience and understanding for my body, that I had to realize : its not part of my personality to need bystanders who give me false attention. My Problem was artificial behaviour from human beings, so why should I live the lie "to need help from someone.", I prefer the individual, slightly muscular, toned look for a woman body. I don ´t need any words from a non-understanding-anti,emphatic doctor; skinny, flabby weak girls, or man who don´t understand what a woman makes a woman.
I don´t want to judge someone, I just want to say, that maybe young woman like me are not interested to get an opinion about their "strong", "fat"or whatever you want to call it - body. You never know, what others have been trough, so be careful with your words.
To work like a machine, I ate 2 bananas,one apricot one table spoon coconut mus and some in oven baked sweet potatoe and carrots
#Idontneedtoexcusemyselfforeating#carbbomb#alotoffood#wannalearnnottoeatfor12hours
My bam bam snackie was a Cliff Bar, he was everything else than sweet. It was a fixed, lightly sweet oatly tasting bar, which reminds me of dough with oats inside.!
To reduce my blood sugar Level, I got one TEAAAAA spoon Mandelmus *yummyyyyyyyyyyyy
My bam bam snackie was a Cliff Bar, he was everything else than sweet. It was a fixed, lightly sweet oatly tasting bar, which reminds me of dough with oats inside.!
To reduce my blood sugar Level, I got one TEAAAAA spoon Mandelmus *yummyyyyyyyyyyyy
I ate watermelon with some grapes, for dinner and went later to the Wod at Spreecrossfit. Honestly, 3 meals a day do not work for me, it simply does not wooooooooooooork ^^ Five to 6 little meals work much better for me ! I felt very weak today, maybe because I only slept 3 hours. In our basement something is broken and its as loud as an airplane. which is flying 24 hours a day over our flat -.-
The last food I had, where so carrots and cucumbers, shared with a new member from Spreecrossfit. ( <3 )
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